Decisions, Decisions
Tuesday, February 5th, 2008I’ve been feeling a little unsure of the whole weblog thing. The Sunday before last was a bit terrifying in the sense that my housemate went to hospital in more pain than I have ever seen a human being experience. The day started out very quietly, but by the end I found myself praying the morphine would keep (barely) taking the edge off for her. It was a real mindfuck, and it left me feeling strangely powerless and little for the duration of that week.
It also posed some interesting questions. I didn’t really think I had a right to write about what happened that day in any great detail, largely because my struggle to process what happened is nothing compared to what my housemate went through. In addition, housemate hasn’t asked to be on my website, and I don’t feel comfortable disclosing her medical history. And also, I was a bit lethargic.
I’m still a bit in limbo about blogging as a whole. It’s not that I don’t love writing, but I wonder whether I should perhaps change topics a little. Maybe I should slide away from the personal a little more, and move towards opinions, rather than experiences. It’s a double edged sword, though. When something as horrifying as the above happens, I don’t want to discuss it in great detail on here, but I don’t want to be funny about silly little nothings either.
I’m going to figure it out, but it may just take a little while.